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Hey guys,
I decided to make a new blog cause its full of shit. Ok I got a question for you all. Have you ever lose 5 friends in 2 days? Well I did and I'm so emotionally stressed out. The feeling of betrayal just burned into my heart. Not that it hadn't burned before. I retrace the steps with my other good friends of mine and we both had come to a conclusion that those people are jealous of me. Ok, that sounds like I'm a preppy slut right? Or more or less a fucking retarded selfish bitch but I'm far from that. I'm a fucking emo. So for people to be so jealous is a bit weird. Anyways it turns out that they were jealous cause I have the coolest clothes and stuff that they don't have. Again pathetic. Why? Its bcuz they were friends with me over what I have. Uggh! Also they were SERIOUSLY harassing me. There's like numerous times ever since I got attached by them where they were like harassing my breasts. At first it was ok until last month, they started to get brutal. Like they were squeezing my boobs hard like damn ouch! And one time they pushed it until I fell. Are they jealous of em cuz its big and natural or something?

Also not only that, they wanted to drag me shopping to change my wardrobe just cuz this one time I wore a blouse?!? Fine that blouse made me look like 40 years older but doesn't mean I have a bad fashion sense. They did. They wore the most ridiculously ugly shirts ( Im not kidding ) and like a few days ago, they told me off cuz I was wearing a pink top over this really gorgeous button up shirt! ABSURD!! I was at my friend's place and was sitting opposite of my guy friend when they attacked me and broke my favorite necklace! I was beyond pissed off. I forced her to get me a new chain, money or buy me a new necklace exactly like mine! ( not an easy job since they were limited ed. ) All in all, I was angry at so many things that they did. I disapprove of their taste and the way they were treating me!

My best friend back home wasn't like this. She accepted me who I am and knew the deepest secrets. I trust her more than anyone. She had defend me so many times and I miss her. I told her what these fucked up girls did, she was beyond pissed off. She didn't like them from the beginning. I remembered why she was my best friend in the first place. I was glad that she's on my side ( umm..who wouldn't? ) and decided to go shopping together after finals. God, I love her!
I agreed and excited to see her again. The last I met her was mid June :( and damn I was pretty rude so this is me, making up for what I did :o]

Ok I just turned from angry to happy. I know I know, I'm bipolar. That much I know. LOL. Ok another thing happened today. ( When will the drama end??) First off, I missed my BF-to-be so I decided to looked at his picture through his facebook and the fucking thing that shocked me was I couldn't find him at my friend's list. So I search for him and found the Add as Friend button. I was so pissed off. I had promised him that I would take it slow and he deleted me?! That explains why he wasn't on for so long since Sunday >_> So I broke down crying. Ever since he broke with him 2 and a half years ago, I still have feelings for him and he showed up in my life again. We played our game and damn didn't that game resurfaced our feelings for each other!

So after the game, he asked maybe we should give it another shot and I asked him if he didn't mind. Course he didn't. By 5.30 I fell asleep after he said BRB. By 10 am he said that he wanted to take things slow cause we were going way too fast and I agreed but by that time, he was off. I'm waiting for his response and none came. WTF?!? Anyways it took me like 20 minutes to get over it. Again I'm so bipolar!

Well I'm so excited for tomorrow. I'm having a double study date. Well for me it's a blind date :/
I'm begging that the guy is some hottie from a rich family, who works in the mob. ^.^! Hey, I need excitement here. Don't blame me! We need some excitement in life right ;o] Well this is my cue to leave. I'll post up the blind date later tomorrow :P

Thank you so much for reading!
Love and so much love
Your girl
Mia!